I write today, not to impart upon you,
any need for pity,
but in hope
that others may also recover
from
times of great loss.
In the last five years, there was devastation and loss in practical ways that left me on the verge of giving up....
and although I did not, I did in fact let go
in one area, that I am now taking the time to repair.
It has been through coaching
and surrounding myself with a fantastic coaching community
AND the care of one extraordinary Master Coach, Barbara G Wainwright,
that I regained my laughter, my heart, and my lightness of being.
It has been about five years,
and during that time I lost my Father, whom I adored...
I lost my adoptive father, a man who I revered,
and who taught me all I know and love about horses......
My dog died,
My boyfriend left me for another woman,
My horse went with that deal,
as I'd given her my horse to lift her heart,
and she lifted my boyfriend instead.
I lost my HOME
I lost my business.......
and I lost for a while,
a willingness from my children to communicate
with me,
for "not being Christian"
I must be from Satan
( THAT was hard to take )
I then went through menopause,
and very nearly lost my mind.
Thank God
for remoteness of the Rocky Mountains,
and miles and miles of road trips,
whereby I could drive remote mountain roads,
and scream my bloody little head off.
Now, for someone like me whose life has been MOSTLY "charmed"
this has been a challenge
to recover my happier nature,
my laugh out loud giggle,
and my recovered impression that MAN kind
is not just a series
of disappointments.
I am recovered.
Yet I am recovered by my own surrender .....
and surrender unto
I can find my heart again,
and trust its care,
having become more discerning
in HOW I share it.
Coaching has been the key for me.
Others who have endured similar exchanges,
and have overcome,
have helped me along the way.
I feel so much happier now.
I look through times in my past where external beauty
were my gifts,
and now know the inner beauty
I cultivate and share
goes beyond all "luck" I'd had
in being blessed with a pretty smile.
Additionally, the stress endured above left me caring little for my external nature,
and AGAIN through coaching,
and dear friends sharing their gifts and craft on Face Book and Social Media,
I am slowly chipping away the concrete wall
I built around my heart,
while enduring such great loss and pain.
I never really shared it outwardly.....
but my body felt its impact.
I am feeling better than I have in a long time.
I am losing weight,
taking better care of my body
through good nutrition
and coaching others so that they too may grow....
Into love, of self , and of life.
For we are so lucky to live in these most spectacular and enriched times......
Earth......is Paradise...
and you ?
Thanks to a few
Barbara G Wainwright
President of Fowler Wainwright International
Nick "The Soul Whisperer"
Luis Silva
Tom Birkenmeyer
Jill Fosco
Kim Muniz
Debbie Ducic...
SO many more !!!!
and
to all of those who trusted me
with their soul
and their art...
Sian Lindemann
Founder
Celebrate World Peace
It starts with YOU ......