Monday, June 4, 2012

To Overcome

I write today, not to impart upon you,
any need for pity, 
but in hope
 that others may also recover 
times of great loss.

In the last five years, there was devastation and loss in practical ways that left me on the verge of giving up....
and although I did not, I did in fact let go 
in one area, that I am now taking the time to repair.

It has been through coaching 
and surrounding myself with a fantastic coaching community 
AND the care of one extraordinary Master Coach, Barbara G Wainwright,
that I regained my laughter, my heart, and my lightness of being.

It has been about five years, 
and during that time I lost my Father, whom I adored...
I lost my adoptive father, a man who I revered, 
and who taught me all I know and love about horses......
My dog died, 
My boyfriend left me for another woman, 
My horse went with that deal, 
as I'd given her my horse to lift her heart, 
and she lifted my boyfriend instead.
I lost my HOME
I lost my business.......
and I lost for a while,
a willingness from my children to communicate
with me, 
for "not being Christian"
I must be from Satan
( THAT was hard to take )

I then went through menopause,
and very nearly lost my mind.

Thank God 
for remoteness of the Rocky Mountains, 
and miles and miles of road trips,
whereby I could drive remote mountain roads, 
and scream my bloody little head off.

Now, for someone like me whose life has been MOSTLY "charmed" 
this has been a challenge 
to recover my happier nature, 
my laugh out loud giggle, 
and my recovered impression that MAN kind 
is not just a series 
of disappointments.

I am recovered. 
Yet I am recovered by my own surrender .....
and surrender unto
 I can find my heart again, 
and trust its care,
having become more discerning 
in HOW I share it.

Coaching has been the key for me.
Others who have endured similar exchanges,
 and have overcome,
have helped me along the way.

I feel so much happier now.
I look through times in my past where external beauty 
were my gifts,
and now know the inner beauty 
I cultivate and share 
goes beyond all "luck" I'd had 
in being blessed with a pretty smile.

Additionally, the stress endured above left me caring little for my external nature, 
and AGAIN through coaching, 
and dear friends sharing their gifts and craft on Face Book and Social Media, 
I am slowly chipping away the concrete wall 
I built around my heart, 
while enduring such great loss and pain.

I never really shared it outwardly.....
but my body felt its impact.

I am feeling better than I have in a long time.
I am losing weight,
taking better care of my body 
through good nutrition
and coaching others so that they too may grow....

Into love, of self , and of life.
For we are so lucky to live in these most spectacular and enriched times...... Paradise...
and you ?

Thanks to a few 
Barbara G Wainwright 
President of Fowler Wainwright International
 Nick "The Soul Whisperer"
Luis Silva
Tom Birkenmeyer
Jill Fosco
Kim Muniz
Debbie Ducic...

SO many more !!!!
to all of those who trusted me 
with their soul 
and their art...

Sian Lindemann
Celebrate World Peace
It starts with YOU ...... 


  1. Excellent to share your process and your heart, Sian. I appreciate your vulnerability and your story of overcoming.

    We all have stories of pain and redemption. Two important things to remember: giving up is not an option; persevering will see us through to the other side of whichever mountain we happen to be climbing.

    Thank you!

  2. up is never an option for me, yet in this sequence there were things that were let go of, those of which were probably most important....
    Care and concern for the "temple" in which I walk around, for without that, nothing else I love to do is possible.
    So I really had to dig deep to find an internal motivation to make a change within, to want to regain a state of health and fitness for me.....
    and I had such a time finding that ignition...
    I've found it now....turned the key, and am taking it slowly on the road to building internal fortitude and physical strength again.....
    Appreciate your post.
    Thank you